Oh. I'm a sinner baby.

nothing.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Tue, 29 Jan 2008 10:57:58 GMT

I'm sorry.

Note to my Ex-Father

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Thu, 26 Jul 2007 15:20:03 GMT

Note to the man I use to call my Dad.

So, heres the deal, anyone of my close friends know that my Dad is a sack of shit. And you also know that I am going to Columbia. I asked dear 'ol dad to co sign on my loan. NOT PAY, just co sign. And you know what he said to me?? " What if you die". Yes my friends, my father said that to me. But it's cool, he has a 60,000 corvette. So he left me a voicemail this morning saying, " I have no news that you won't be happy to hear......... Dawn(stepwhore) knows some ppl in video production (?) and you can talk to them and see what they do and how they go there ( I don't want to go into video production, asshat) I also don't think Columbia is a good choice for you, I understand if you never want to talk to me agian". Yes, my father is ok with never talking to me again. So these are my last words to the name who unfortunatley created me.

Mark,

Please send me the money you are going to give me for school, if you have it. I know money is tight now that you have that car payment. I hope everytime you look at your good life you think about how much you have FUCKED YOUR CHILDREN OVER. I hope everytime you go to bed at night you feel empty and alone, because it is all your fault. When I talk about you to people, their mouth hang open, because they can't believe how selfish someones father is. You have everything you have ever wanted and I can barely afford to put gas in my gas. But whatever, you have your fucking great lonely life with your cunt of a wife. I actually feel releaved. I don't ever have to feel sorry for you again. You were never a part of my life. And now you will never, ever be again. If you died tomorrow, I don't think I could even pretend that I would miss you. Isn't that a shitty feeling Mark, knowing that no one will miss you once your gone. You have become so selfish that even your family doesn't care about you. you have no one. but thats fine, you are ok with that. You should have never had children and I thank god everyday that you did not have any with that bitch. You have no idea what it is like to be a father, and to love someone more than yourself. You have never put anyone before yourself. I hope your excellant life of christ makes you feel good at the end of the day, because once you get to those pearly gates, god is going to ask you how you could do what you did to your children. How you could love yourself more than your children. So I hope you and that whore of a wife have a great life together. Because she is all you have. and ill make sure I don't die so my mother doesn't have to pay off my debt, but you know what, she would. because she loves me. and you know, would actually miss me if i were dead. so thanks for making me feel shitty about that too. you are a miserable man, who is going to die alone. I can't wait to prove you wrong. I can't fucking wait. thanks for always not believing in me, because it just pushes me harder. Have a nice life, and I hope your corvette will be able to replace me.

oh jesus

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Tue, 10 Apr 2007 04:19:23 GMT

im left alone for 5 weeks, so im going to chicago on April 15th.

im tried of sex and the city re runs.

mark your calendars!

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Thu, 25 Jan 2007 05:17:28 GMT

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Mon, 05 Jun 2006 03:33:27 GMT

i love people who are full of themselves.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Sun, 23 Apr 2006 17:44:32 GMT

omg i love doing projects about effin Israel and every fucking website is in FUCKING HEBREW!!! ISRAEL CAN SUCK IT!

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Sun, 16 Apr 2006 00:45:02 GMT

I LOVE THIS MOVIE!

best movie ever.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Tue, 11 Apr 2006 03:40:25 GMT

OMG! BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN WAS THE SHITTIEST MOVIE I HAVE EVER SEEN.

i want it to die! DIE!

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Mon, 16 Jan 2006 22:10:14 GMT

Today is the day I have offically decided that I am no longer stay in Michigan or go to college in any state that temperture goes below 45 degrees and experiences snow.

I think I am going to go to Brooks. In beautiful, sunny Santa Barbara.

yes. yes i am.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Sat, 24 Dec 2005 15:17:13 GMT

i got two a's and one b. im so excited.

other then that, nothing much is going on.

it doesnt feel like christmas, and i dont know why. but whatever, im still getting presents, and honestly, we all know that is the other thing that matters.

almost forgot, last saturday jen and i went to frankenmuth. it was cold.

then we went shopping.

then we got drunk.

i spent the entrire with jen. she is offically my girlfriend now.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Tue, 20 Dec 2005 05:02:31 GMT

Ok. I am in love with my photo teacher. I want to make sweet love to him. Maybe its just because he has so much wisdom and knowledge or because he is an intellectual speaker. Well I don't know, but I want him.

In other news, my cervix is going to fall out.
I hate cervix's.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Fri, 09 Dec 2005 05:33:23 GMT

I am all done with my photo shit. All done writing movie reviews. Now all I need to do is finish my math homework and I am all done with school.

I'll take pictures of my pictures because, I don't have a 20x24 scanner.

and. I totally love my man.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Wed, 30 Nov 2005 05:49:53 GMT

ok two things....

this is my big girl bed. which i have had for months now, but i think i need to share its beauty with the world.

and this is me looking in a mirror.

honestly, this is so freaky.

ASHLEE SIMPSON CONCERT ON SATURDAY!!!!

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Tue, 15 Nov 2005 02:42:51 GMT

yeah thats right...

i heart my friends.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Sun, 13 Nov 2005 07:51:31 GMT

there is something wrong with me, and i dont know what it is.

maybe its the cervical cancer thats fuckin me up?

i have alot of photos, maybe ill put them up tomorrow.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Sun, 30 Oct 2005 19:41:04 GMT

so if i wasnt utterly and completely lazy, i would put the one photo i took last night in here.

so i payed 20 dollars last night for 3 beers and to watch a bunch of dudes play some metal in their underwear. yeah. good shit, right? no.

after wasting a half a tank of gas, i ended up in mt clemens to meet up with the best boyfriend in the world. it was a good party.
minus stupid girls saying that, someone who will remain unnamed, buys her things and has been dating him and shit. oh well thats nice. we all know how much i give a shit. but then she proceeds to walk over to her friend and calls me a bitch. damn, what the hell did i do, he asked me to give him a light and i did. omg i am a bitch.

then some other whatever proceeds to say to my face and all of my friends, and i quote, " well i heard things about you". give me a fucking break. are all of you like fucking 9 years old. paaaaleazzzee.

so that was my night. the rest was cool.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Wed, 26 Oct 2005 17:22:35 GMT

word.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Fri, 21 Oct 2005 02:07:15 GMT

So we all know, to some, monthly anniversarys aren't a big deal but it is nice to see the one you love, and be like "hey buddy its been nice dating you, yada yada, kiss kiss hug hug yada yada".
well for me. we were supposed to go check out our friends new apartment. so for this, i leave class early, only to get out of class, get to his house and i have a message on my phone and it says " hey babe, i think we are going to the bar tonight when we go to kathleens, and she lives in detroit, so im sure you dont want to go blah blah and more shit blah"

THANKS ALOT ASSHOLE FOR LEAVING!!!! and just making new plans where we all know, i cant go.

i'm not going to lie, this shit pisses me off. thanks alot for leaving before you talk to me.

oh i am like beyond pissed, it just really gets on my nerves.

i think next time we make plans, im going to be like oh well we are going here and im sure you didnt want to go, so peace out.

ARGH!

sorry everyone.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Wed, 19 Oct 2005 18:46:47 GMT

I'm sorta excited for the winter time. because i get stuck inside, and actually accomplish things.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Tue, 18 Oct 2005 03:06:30 GMT

ok.
#1. My boyfriend is sweet. way better then yours.

#2. My mom sucks. I had my lip ring in a cup in the bathroom, and she effin poured it down the sink and lost the ball. i dislike her very much right now. and she owes me money. yes. money. jerk.

#3. I am hungry.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Sun, 16 Oct 2005 00:36:52 GMT

happy gayest hallmark holiday of the year.

love,

jessica

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Thu, 06 Oct 2005 19:39:11 GMT

I feel so accomplished!
I figured out all on my own how to change my burnt out blinker on my vehicle! and as I was looking so handy, some middle school kid on the school bus called me a hottie. score!!
how i just need to buy a bulb for my burnt out head light. yeah real cool.

don't hate me because i'm fat.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Tue, 04 Oct 2005 13:41:04 GMT

oh we are so freaking cool it kills you.

and i miss this lady and being in chicago with her.

p.s i got my big girl bed. and it is sooo comfy!!!

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Tue, 04 Oct 2005 04:14:08 GMT

i think im going to take my boyfriend with me to chicago in november. how romantic.

jessicanoeldelleva@hotmail.com — Sun, 25 Sep 2005 03:13:03 GMT

ok so im just gunna spill it.

1. i am stressed. i dont show it, i dont always feel it, but it is bottling up inside of me and im going to explode.

2. im not really happy. the days really just pass me by. i work, go to school, work, go to school, work then on sunday i get to see my boyfriend. and sometimes i wish he was more excited to see me.

3. i miss my friends. bryon is now this person i dont know, and due to work and shawn getting a girlfriend, he and i never get to hang out. i can't even remember the last time we did. and thats gay.

4. i dont know where and when i want to go away to school. i want to go away, but right now im so busy i have no time to investigate and make a decision. and when i do have free time i just want to sleep.

5. i dont know what i want to do with my life. or what job i want to have, or even if i can get a job. AH!

i miss the life i had two months ago.

sorry.